I still think about Joey. I still think about fooling around with him. I don't know why. Maybe its cuz I know that it can't happen again. Joe suggested that the reason I like Dana is because I know that I can't have him. I know that its something that is almost not possible to get. Maybe that's the same reason I still think about Joey. No one knows about what we did and no one is going to find out either. At least not as long as I'm still working there. It would make it awkward. I'm glad that me and Joey never had sex though. As much as I wanted to I'm glad that it never happened. I still think about it though. Not very often, but it happens. I think about Dana too, but the reality isn't there with him. With Joey it was a reality. A reality that I enjoyed while it was happening and I'm glad that it ended. I'm more happy that I'm done with him though. Huh. I want to wait until I get a boyfriend and I've been with him for a while before I have sex with him. I don't want that to be what the relationship is based on. But ... *sigh* I think about Dana, and I think about what it would be like to hang out with him. But then I think that I'd probably give in and have sex. I wish that I could figure something out. I kinda wish that I could find a way to get with Dana and try something. Try and see how it works and where it goes. If it goes nowhere then I don't pursue it any farther. If it starts to go somewhere then I pursue it farther and see where it goes. Alright I'm trying to think about what to write while I watch TV and its not working. So I'll write later.

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