I was going to make this annymous, but since most of you don't know who I am, it's pretty much annymous anyway.

~ I still love the one who hurt me. I want to see him, but at the same time I don't. I keep waiting for him to find me, but I know he won't.

~ I used to cut because it was the only way for me to feel release from the pain I felt. It channeled it to something I could control. I gave in once since I stopped cutting 3 years ago. I wish it were still that easy to control the pain I feel.

~ Whenever my ex cried, I would smile because it meant that I wasn't the only one who felt pain. I wasn't the only one who felt emotion.

~ I have a lot of self control, but once I give in, I have trouble stopping. It doesn't matter what it is either. Sex, drinking, lying. Once I start, I have a lot of trouble stopping.

~ I get tattoos and piercings because it's a way of inflicting pain without being criticized or questioned about my mental stability.

~ Sometimes I feel happy when one of my friends is dealing with shit because it means I'm not the only one who suffers.

~ I get jealous when I hear someone is happy and living a good life.

~ A majority of the time when I'm upset and crying, I have no idea why.

~ I had sex with my boss {at my first job} because I couldn't stop dreaming about him. No other reason.

~ I wish that I had someone to talk to; someone to complain about my problems to, but I feel like I'm complaining too much when I do start talking about them. I also feel like no one cares.

~ After my falling out with a friend, I had sex with his best friend who was still dating someone. I've only told one person. Sometimes I wonder how he would have reacted if I had told him about sleeping with his best friend.

Alright, that's it for now. I have a lot more, but I can't think of them right now. I'll add to the list as I think of them.

with all these confessions, you really r an unhappy person. and u deserve to have happiness.
» renaye on 2007-11-01 08:46:58

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